Once during Listening Prayer a teammate said to me, “I got the word Protector. Or Protect Her. I’m not sure which. Maybe both.”
I liked both.
If you knew me during college or the early stages of my World Race mission’s trip, you’d know my compassion skills were slim to none. My friends could tell you stories of how quickly they learned to not come to me if they wanted sympathy. It wasn’t on purpose I promise! Compassion just wasn’t my strong suit.
However, on the Race I soon learned that just because my compassion doesn’t come in the form of crying, didn’t mean I wasn’t compassionate.
I am, instead, a Mama Bear.
Mama Bear: A tough, aggressive, and protective mother. Often going to extreme lengths to protect her child, usually her son, and herself. (Urban Dictionary)
Ok so I’m not a mother and I don’t have children, but I do have an instinct to fight and protect others when it’s in my ability to do so.
Example #1: Before the Race dad made me take self-defense classes. I had no interest in this. I played rugby after all, I could hold my own. But dad says that when the teacher explained I could use what I learned to protect my teammates, I immediately lit up and was suddenly extremely interested.
Example #2: On the Race in Mozambique my teammate was being harassed at the market. So what did I do? I put myself between her and the man harassing her. You would never have known I was significantly smaller than both of them. I would’ve laid my life down for her if it came to that.
Apparently I’m very intimidating. I guess that could explain why I’ve been single for five years!
But when my teammate said those words, “Protect her,” I felt as though it was God Himself telling my teammates to protect me. From what? Who knows. Who cares. But it reminded me how much I desire to feel as though someone else out there wants to protect me. That I am worthy of being protected and looked after by someone who cares greatly for me.
A few years ago I was talking to a friend and his fiancée about a guy I liked at the time. My friend said he was probably intimidated by me (see it’s a theme) because “girls who are strong and independent make men feel like the girl doesn’t need or want them because she’s fine on her own.” He said it wasn’t until he started hanging out with his fiancée and getting to know her better that he realized how fragile she actually was.
It’s true, I don’t need a man to protect me.
I would certainly like one to be protective of me though.
But putting my wants aside, I am honestly, perfectly happy and content being single. Even if it’s something I’m called to for the rest of my life.
Because Jesus protected me first. He was my original protector. Before He even knew me, and way before I ever knew Him, He saw me, and loved me so much that He laid His life down for my sins so that I could be protected from the evil in this world.
I’ve actually experienced a moment, a single moment, without God’s love and protection. It’s terrifying. Which makes the knowledge so much sweeter that I know Someone who will always fight to the death for me, because He already did it once. He already died for me once. And the best part is He conquered the grave, freeing me from sin and death.
Christ will always be my original Protector and He will always answer God’s call to “Protect Her.” He has already done it countless times throughout my life. God’s love and protection are so much better than anything else out there. I’ve tried other things. But the only thing that has ever made me consistently happy and secure, has always been Him.
If it’s in God’s plan for me to marry a man who will protect me and allow me to fight for him, then I will appreciate it all the more because we both learned from the same Teacher. Our original Protector. He’s the best example out there, and I love Him for it.
Whoever goes to the Lord for safety,
whoever remains under the protection of the Almighty,
2 can say to him,
“You are my defender and protector.
You are my God; in you I trust.”
3 He will keep you safe from all hidden dangers
and from all deadly diseases.
4 He will cover you with his wings;
you will be safe in his care;
his faithfulness will protect and defend you.
5 You need not fear any dangers at night
or sudden attacks during the day
6 or the plagues that strike in the dark
or the evils that kill in daylight.
7 A thousand may fall dead beside you,
ten thousand all around you,
but you will not be harmed.
8 You will look and see
how the wicked are punished.
9 You have made the Lord your[a] defender,
the Most High your protector,
10 and so no disaster will strike you,
no violence will come near your home.
11 God will put his angels in charge of you
to protect you wherever you go.
12 They will hold you up with their hands
to keep you from hurting your feet on the stones.
13 You will trample down lions and snakes,
fierce lions and poisonous snakes.
14 God says, “I will save those who love me
and will protect those who acknowledge me as Lord.
15 When they call to me, I will answer them;
when they are in trouble, I will be with them.
I will rescue them and honor them.
16 I will reward them with long life;
I will save them.”
Want to know more about me? Visit my “Fun Facts About Me” blog and be sure to Subscribe!