Today, I cried over Starbucks. True story.
It’s been a rough start to the semester at work. We’re short staffed which means I’m running around filling in the gaps.
So this morning, when I went on THREE failed attempts at finding a Starbucks on my way to Delaware, I got frustrated and emotional.
I almost started to cry. Then I actually started to cry when I realized that I was about to cry over Starbucks.
WHY WAS I ABOUT TO CRY OVER STARBUCKS?! It’s JUST Starbucks! Yes, it’s delicious, warms me up inside, and makes me feel like I can conquer the world… but it’s Starbucks.
So I started to cry. Disappointed in myself for getting upset over coffee.
I’ve been spending hours in the car listening to James & 1 Peter with verses that say:
When troubles of any kind come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow.
When I hear those verses, the first thing that comes to mind is NOT Starbucks.
It’s been a messy season. One of hurt, turmoil, truth, and lies. It’s been a season of prayer, redemption, and doubt. A season of watching impossible things become miracles, in watching mountains move, and in seeing how the Lord is good and heals and redeems us from our darkest selves.
A season were verses like the above or:
[1 Peter 1:6-7]
So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you must endure many trials for a little while. These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold—though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world.
… encourage me to continue fighting in the name of Jesus and not admit defeat. To keep my eyes on Christ and to endure. Because this is not surprising to God. And it is a beautiful thing my faith is being tested and purified, like how fire tests and purifies gold. I want to grow in my faith, and if trials are the way to do it, then I want them for the Lord’s glory.
So, today, I cried over Starbucks. Rather, I cried over the fact that I wanted to cry over not successfully finding a Starbucks.
But I suppose in a way that’s kind of cool. I have grown to a point where I can recognize my silliness over a “trial” and grieve over how I try to place my happiness & focus in places they aren’t meant to go.
And isn’t that what the Father does when we try to put idols before Him? Things of this world we think will make us happy, when in reality, only He has the power to fulfill all our desires? He grieves for us. He is a jealous God, and He is jealous for our attention.
Here is a great sermon about just that: Falling into Forgetfulness – Matt Chandler