Today I was looking through the notes on my phone, and I was reminded of why I love writing everything down and documenting everything. Because you never know when the prayers you forgot you prayed, will be answered, or mean so much more than they did initially.
April 9, 2017 – words I felt the Lord impress on me:
I put your idols to death because I love you & desire your love in return, Ariane.
I know I have wounded you by doing this. By taking away the things you thought you needed. I know it hurt.
But I have wounded you so that I might heal your innermost parts. The parts of you that you deny & only I can see. I wounded you so I could take the idols you thought would heal your wounds, away.
I am the healer. I will heal your wounds now, and I will heal the ones you were trying to fix and heal on your own.
“Do not let your heart be troubled, Ariane. You believe in God, believe in me.”
“Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in Me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father.”
“And I will do whatever you ask in My name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. You may ask Me for anything in my name, and I will do it.”
Be patient. Be strong. Be independent and moving forward.
He spoke these words to me when I was in the midst of a lot of angst, anger, brokenness, and confusion. I was lost and couldn’t understand. He spoke these words to me in a time where, I knew they were right and good. But I didn’t fully believe them.
“Did you have to do that, Lord? Really? Was it really necessary for your kingdom that all those things happened?”
Almost a year later, and I can confidently say yes. Yes, all these words are true and worthy of God’s love. My idols have been or are being put to death, and I am living a life in full abundance in Him because He loves me. He has healed me and provided protection of my heart in miraculous ways that are inexplainable. He has warned me and has been gentle with me. He has provided opportunity after opportunity to live a life full of adventures with Him, in ways that I can more confidently say – “I am whole by myself.”
Upon reading this note… I’ve seen ways in which He’s grown me in the past year. And I now joyfully pray and ask that He will continue to transform me in new and exciting ways, so that I can continue to live in full love and abundance with Him.